I have always been shy and very protective of myself. I grew up in a weird situation. Other families did not have a dad who read his bible in the basement, who belonged to a strange cult church, who threw beer at the wall and said the devil was making him miss the trash, who was so fierce that I, as his child, used to go out and tell the neighborhood kids to go away because I was frightened of how he might act. When he and Mom had a battle which led to his moving out, my brother, sister and I were beyond relieved. But then Mom had to go to work full time, and that started an emotional self-reliance that lives to this day. Early on I trained myself to understand I was just going to be alone and that's that. Other kids, other people were probably going to hurt me somehow, and so it was best to find comfort in things like records and books, tv, etc.
I don't know if I'll ever have any close friends in my life because of my past, but this can be said, I truly love everyone. My silence may come off as snobby sometimes, but it's just me being me. I love, truly, truly love everyone with all my heart.
That being said, I want to say how beautiful it was for Molly to dedicate a post to me the other day. I love Molly because she is kind, and such a kindred spirit. She writes with such beautiful descriptions, posts the most amazing pictures, and always has a unique light of perspective. I love her dearly. She has helped me in this book process, and has done so with such grace and wisdom. Molly, I want you to know how wonderful I think you are, and this post is for you. Thank you for being my friend. Let's dance : )