Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Dreams and Reality

Last year I hit a nice stride after making the decision to stop my negative thought processes. You may or may not have noticed a difference in the way I blogged at that time. Basically, I switched negative thoughts for more positive ones, the point being that if what I was afraid of hadn't killed me yet, it wasn't worth my time and why not expect a happier outcome instead of all the doom and gloom? The change worked. I was happier and even though life wasn't perfect, I no longer anticipated the worst, meaning I wasn't stuck in fear-based thinking. Life felt easier, and my day-to-day existence became more secure and confident. Remember, I grew up in a cult, my father both mentally and physically abused our family, so I've never been able to trust anyone or feel completely secure. It's why I gave up singing and performing, it's why I don't go into big crowds or concerts or do anything that might put me in a less than secure position.The fear is ingrained in me, and though I fight it on a daily basis, it still causes me much stress and worry.

I know, totally f-ed up.

Now this year my new thing is to battle all those creepy old demons with even more positive manifestation. It's hard. I'm feeling the crunch of having no finances and of being in a really, really messed up situation that has me depressed and just feeling at the end of my rope. From what I've heard with the eclipses and full moon going on this month, it's the perfect time for making the unseen (your dreams) come into reality, and so with that in mind, this really is the perfect time to manifest—if you believe in that stuff. The truth is, all this weird, hocus-pocus, mediation and praying stuff I've been doing has brought me so much relief. I definitely believe in it.

So, manifestation.

If I had money I would do/have/enjoy the following:



I'd buy a charming house with a good amount of acreage and turn it into a farm for myself and the kids. I love alpacas (like, crazy, deep deep love). They are adorable! It's been a dream of mine to have an alpaca farm for quite a while now. Is that weird? I don't care. Bring on the alpacas. They're gentle, sweet, funny and they make the softest yarn. I'd also have chickens, a dairy cow, and . . . I don't know . . . maybe some goats. OH! I'd also have a pot belly pig. Me and those animals on Amy's Acres.



I'd go on tour. I'd paint. I'd travel. I'd see all those small towns I've been stalking on Google. It's been years since this girl has been on a road trip! There's nothing better than pulling into a small town and finding out its history, its customs, its people. I love that. And there's always a diner with a waitress named Vicky. You can bet on it. And pie. There's always kick ass pie in those places.



Another dream I have is to homeschool my children for a year so we can just be together, taking care of the animals, cooking, hiking. And I'd take a million pictures and blog about it and maybe even self-pub a book about our 'nature' experience and what it means to them. That would be so much fun.

There's a few other things I want, but I'll keep all that secret. What dreams do you have that you'd like to manifest?

Thanks for stopping by! And don't forget, The Time Seekers is currently free for e-download on Amazon.

Happy Trails . . .

12 comments:

  1. Dear Amy, I applaud your positive thinking. No matter what age you are it is important to have hopes and dreams and to believe that some of those dreams will come true, too. Life has a way of bringing them to you -- and always in unexpected ways and from where you least expect! I am 69 and still have dreams -- and some of them really do come true...

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    1. Thank you! It's wonderful to hear that dreams do still come true. Thanks for sharing that!

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  2. I am so happy to read your post. A lovely lady with positve thoughs and with dreams and hope will succeed. Fear kills, but positivity brings positive results. Yes, there are bumps along the way, but don't give up, relish your accomplishments (which are many), and keep moving forward. There may be the farm for you and your children in the future. Your dream can come true. Believe in yourself, Amy. I do.

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  3. re your first para: Do remember that the difference between an optimist and a pessimist is that the optimist enjoys his/her self whilst waiting for the inevitable.

    I love that barn, it would make a fabulous house. Are buildings like that not available with a few acres (cheaply)? My late mother always used to say that everything happens for the best; I think I agree with her.

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    1. Cro, yes, I think you're right about finding satisfaction and abundance during the time of transformation instead of waiting for it to arrive. About the barn, unfortunately many around here have been pulled down for housing, or just left in disrepair. If you drive deeper into the country you will see barns in use. I really, really love seeing a refurbished barn--such as what you've been working on. They are so airy and would make the greatest art studio.

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  4. By the way, when clicking to get back to my blog it became apparent that my page was blocked. Didn't know that. No wonder I've lost so many followers and comments!

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  5. I don't know any more about your life than you post here. I know you have your ups and downs, but I didn't realise how rough you'd been feeling. I hope that things turn round for you.

    Meanwhile, I nominated you as an interesting person on the strength of your blog. There's details on my blog (at http://thewhiterajah.blogspot.co.uk/2014/10/one-lovely-blog-award.html). You're being asked to say seven fun/fascinating/lovely/unusual/whatever things about yourself. I wasn't sure, but I enjoyed doing it and realised afterwards that my life looked pretty sweet. Give it a go: it might make you feel (even) more positive.

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    1. You know, I did see this on Facebook yesterday and then life happened or something. Thanks for including me!

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  6. Oh Amy, I'm so glad that the positive thoughts are winning. Follow your dreams - I first saw some alpacas at the ' Welsh small holder and gardeners' show a few years ago. They're gorgeous and funny. I think my dream is to make my garden and home a place where people just like to drop by and spend some time here. And it's all starting to happen, in the week, my sister-in-law and nephew just called in to see us. My big son and his partner called in to see us. My granddaughter rang us from York and my daughter called yesterday. Sometimes we don't really see anybody for weeks so it's been really lovely.

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    1. I hope your family does all stop by, Molly. That sounds like a lovely dream!

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  7. It's all about Jesus, Amy. Let go of your worries and put your trust and faith in Him. He will catch you and give you the desires of your heart. Pray to Him and He will hear you. All the work has been done for you, all you need is faith in Him and what He has done, paid for in full, for you.

    There's no need to follow cults or even religion. It's a personal one-to-one relationship He wants with you, specifically you, and He is waiting right now to hear from you. I know this from my own personal experience.

    I've had a lot of bashing in blogland for saying this but it's the truth. Jesus loves you. x

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