Empty. Quiet. Too Quiet.
Both of the kids are in school today and I miss them. As the week goes by I'll learn to get over it, but right now all I can do is think of all the beautiful moments of them being here in the afternoon; making lunch, playing, reading, going to the park. Even if I've been annoyed and busy with housework, it was still beautiful. And, I know, I know, they'll be home in a few hours and it will seem as if no time passed, but for now it's an ache. Also with Julia in school all day for the first time, I feel a sort loss of duty if you will. For so many years I've been her cheerleader, her protector. Now I'm just a regular human again. It's been such a struggle, and such a joy. You know, when her sensory disorder became evident back when she was around two years old, I fought like crazy for her. My life has been defined by her. She's a funny, spirited child. And smart, and loving. She can create a whole universe out of a blanket and some pillows. She laughs freely and runs so fast she's almost flying. She loves to eat and loves to be my little cook. But, man . . . is she messy.
This summer was kinda tough when it came to blogging. Here's to hoping I can use this free time effectively: visiting and commenting! But more important I hope to finish old projects. I also hope to finish some reading. I'm way behind on that.
Take care everyone.